I’ve never considered myself particularly religious. While I grew up in the church, I never truly felt a deep connection to it. However, I’ve always considered myself a spiritual person. During my school years, I found myself drawn to the study of various religions, appreciating the wisdom and teachings they offered. I took elements from each, which helped shape my worldview and moral compass. Despite this, one truth has remained constant: I believe in the existence of God.

As I spent more time in church, I eventually felt the need to distance myself from it. I longed for freedom and a deeper understanding of spirituality. Since leaving, I’ve encountered numerous challenges, but in moments of despair, I’ve always looked up to the sky and turned to prayer. Lately, though, I’ve been feeling a deep sense of emptiness. As I grow older, I yearn for something to nourish my spirit. I feel an awakening is necessary—a reconnection with a higher sense of purpose. I know I’m not alone in this; every day, I see others seeking spiritual fulfillment through religion and community, hoping to find wholeness.

I seek out guidance from spiritual teachers such as Eckhart Tolle, and I’ve even downloaded a Bible app to explore deeper. At one point, I delved into the teachings of Islam. I feel that I know what I’m looking for, yet it seems just out of reach, as if I’m wandering aimlessly through a dense forest. At times, I question the purpose of my life, feeling that I cannot truly fulfill it until I achieve balance—mentally, spiritually, and physically. These aspects are inextricably linked, and the struggle to align them is real.

Every day, I battle the demons of my past: the influences of how I was raised and the environment in which I grew up. These forces often clash with my true inner self. Still, I have an intense desire to evolve and grow. There are moments when I take one step forward, only to find myself taking three steps back. Being strong-willed is both a gift and a challenge, as it often takes longer to break through mental barriers.

I pray for clarity and for the strength to find what I’m searching for. My journey is one of self-discovery, seeking to dismantle my ego, embrace conscious thinking, and become the best version of myself—spiritually, mentally, and physically.

–Omari Knight